This entire week I have marveled at how this year has blown by and reminiscing... "What was I doing a year ago today?" My labor was sporadic. My contractions refused to organize despite being painful so I was encouraged to go into Labor and Delivery to see if it was time. It was 10:30 pm and after fluids and an epidural and an announcement that I was finally dilated 10 cm...it was time. I had enjoyed a few hours in a peaceful environment with the comforting sound of your heart, transmitted in a
constant stream of ba-bum, ba-bum, ba-bum from the monitors strapped around my large middle. I wasn't nervous or scared or anxious, just waiting and relishing every moment..the surprise baby I felt move and imagined holding was moments away from being real,
from being placed in a tiny diaper, swaddled tightly, dressed in a hat and placed
in my arms. The pain didn't matter.I knew I was mere seconds from one of the greatest, most love-filled moments any mother can ever experience. And just after 2 am, there you were...that euphoric moment of seeing you held high, pink and perfect and
crying. To hold you...to kiss your head, all sticky and warm. To fall in love.
Lydia,
you have been more of a blessing to us than you could ever imagine.
What a miracle it has been to experience seeing you in my belly as a
teeny little spec and a little less than two years later a perfectly
sweet and full of personality little girl. I love you so much and
can't wait to see what else God reveals to us through you.
